Congratulation ! AYO!

I'm speechless, I'm truly speechless ! 

When I saw your photo, all the memories rushed back from our first meeting to the last goodbye I heard from you in June 2011. I cannot believe it is almost a year since the last time we talked to each other. But, indeed it is a wonderful journey! 

I have been there with you before you enroll and seeing you now finally achieving your dream is more than my heart can handle. I'm proud of you, I'm really are..you fulfilled the first step in accomplishing the dream which we both talked about endlessly..And I'm sure that soon you will be everything you wished you will be. 

You're a wonderful person, and that's why I'm sure that everything good in your life is a reward from Allah. Your moon-like face in that photo is nothing, but the "noor" Allah blesses His good servants. I ask Allah to grant you this "noor" now and hereafter and enlighten your path in the Judgment Day.

I could not stop crying when I saw that :) It was really the best thing happened to me in a while. Selfishly, I wished I'm there in the ceremony! But, I told myself that you look much happier than I've ever seen you before..I knew then that I was really a pain in the neck :) Allah bless her, and grant her the happiness, success and peace as she makes you happy. 

I really want to scream now ! ..saying " AYO" :F

Congratulation, Congratulation, Congratulation brother..

I'm happy, I'm so excited..I

May all your dreams and hers come true..And May Allah grant you all you wish and much more and gather me with you and my dear ones with the Prophet (peace be upon him) in Paradise ..

P.S. Can I send something there for the kids? :) If possible, which day is suitable :)

I'm Back...much happier !

It has been a while that I wrote here...I miss being here, I miss my comfy corner, where nobody truly knows me, but you.

I was not doing okay that last month which makes me stays away from here. But, I'm back now good and healthy as ever :)

There is much to catch up in this world around me, I feel I was more than a month away from people!

As a start nothing has updated in my private life, except that I'm turning more annoying to my mum:) I'm resuming my Quran Classes at home soon , and was babysitting my cousin's baby Jojo every morning :) And sure following updates from you brother ! Sometimes I really forget and sit writing you email, when I read something and didn't understand it :F Otherwise, I'm good now, I moved to my mum's place :F, you know how when you are not okay everybody loves you and you becomes so special and got all those millions Kinder surprise eggs, that's the most awesome feeling ever, believe me :F And being not okay I gained a permission from my uncle to travel ..YES, to go abroad. In two weeks I am going, but my stepfather says it is a surprise so I'm not sure where :) 

 I will anyway post photos Insh'Allah :)

BTW, when is the graduation season :) I thought it is April ?

I feel like there is alot in my head, but they are rushing every one wants to be written before, that there is a jam in my head :F It is not good to stay away from here for so long. I will try to write down everything in a daily basis to avoid this :) Even my sweet diary that I keep since I was 6, I stopped writing in it daily last month:( But i will try to compensate it :)

The last thing to say is that I'm happy now, I make a peaceful deal with myself to stay this way forever. Everyone has a down in her life, but she must stand up not only for herself, but also for those who loves her to make them happy :) And there is something keeps me excited and happy now that in a month I'm getting a future letter from you for our fourth anniversary :) I will make it special even if you are not around, but still it is special 'cause I know you this time for sure that you are happier happier than ever , which makes me one too !

For the second time :)

For the second time I get so sad thinking there is no tracking in my blog while actually I forgot to add the tracking code to the new template ! LOL

Happy to know you might really visit !

For you and her :)

Blue for you my little brother :)

My blog is turning blue for you.. I know we have never met, but I'm pretty sure you know me deep down in your heart and love me as much as I do :)

Autism Awarness Day

Today April 2, 2012 is "Autism Awareness Day". The world is blue for them. Those suffering from Autism is just like us, they feel the same as us, but they only find it hard to express their feelings. Those autistic kids are our brothers, sisters, nieces and nephews; We have to do our best to help them adjust to their situations and support them emotionally !

In Riaydh, they are holding a party for autistic kids, I am going there in a hope to see my little brother. I miss him so much. He is always there in my mind, but for today the whole world, including mine is turning blue...Just for you my dear. I miss you so much :)

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The Nightmare..

Well, the night before I had that scary nightmare, I hardly got sleep back then. Yesterday , I was still afraid that I spent the entire day in the hall among them. At night, I was so scared to go back into my room..eventually, I did ..crying.

But, this got me thinking why would we allow our fears to conquer us? Sometimes, we run to sleep to hide from our fears. But what shall we do when even our sleep fails us? Should we surrender or fight back? 

I believe that this is a hint that we have to make our day a place where we hide not from our fear..but the place where we hide the fears themselves...bury them..after killing them, not mercifully, but cruelly in a revenge of all those miserable times they bring to us.

So here I'm ...armed with my forgotton courage which my beloved ones had once planted in my heart..but which I lost in some battles...but I promise I won't let my fear conquer me anymore

as one told had told me once "even if I'm not here physically, I will always be there for you..you just think". I do believe that right now...you are all next to me supporting me in my battle.

so wish me good luck :)