I was thinking I will get a response for my last post, but I got none..I'm not disappointed, I understand..
Today is our 4th anniversary. Mixed feelings when I got the future email. I have been losing track lately of almost everything. But sure not our anniversary, but reading (4 years) was shocking for me. I remember quite well, that you walked away 3 weeks before our 3rd anniversary last year..and the images of the dinner I make for myself last year for the occasion are vivid in front of me, and I remember as well that I spent that night crying cause you promised to send me email and you didn't..
I cannot believe it. Things go so fast. It feels like it has been years not a year that we last separated.
I cannot deny that I expected more in the email, but I'm still thankful. I know that you are not a wordy-person :) And it seems that you copied the same email for all my future emails in the anniversary..today's email is the exact email of last year :)
You just wonderful brother,,,
I wish to know more about you, how is your new life, and hopefully you are leading a comfortable, lovable life together. God bless you both.
I don't have any of our correspondences before as I promised and sometimes I wish I didn't get rid of them. Sometimes I just miss those lovely days. I'm good and happy, though alhamdullah.
Sometimes I feel you become old :) not the same, you know. You are more knowledgeable now mash'Allah. I feel ashamed that I'm still the same silly girl I could not even complete my master degree :)
I saw your friend's baby. She is so adorable. I wish to kiss her :) she is totally sweet. I'm sure yours will be much cuter too :) If one day I get one, I will dress her those white tutu short skirt, she will look like an angel :) just like me :)
so, it's our anniversary ..I'm old, sitting in the park right now wondering how life is so fast and how we sometimes forget about our beloved persons. I wish you didn't forget me. I don't even know if you read those lines or not. But I will still write them and the fairy will take them to you :)
Yeah, brother. I throw a party for little orphans when you didn't reply to me last time and I dressed like the fairy :) They were so cute kids , I wish you could see them !
I cannot imagine if we were together today what will we do :) I know something crazy :) Maybe we meet at dad's home :F. Imagine :) But since we are not. I started to write about my life story, hopefully I will finish it before I die, and it will get published one day. All the names and places are changed. But the vivid real story of us and others are the same.
I don't know what to say. I'm just happy this moment. I'm happy for you, her and myself that we are good Insh'Allah and that one day under a huuuge blueberry tree, near that clear spring and the daises, you, her and me and your kids will gather in Heaven living a wonderful, everlasting life. But the swing in the tree is for me alone :) maybe I will let your kids, but not you or her :) It's mine :)
Thank you brother for all the wonderful things you did for me and all the kindness that you showered me.. God bless you both and fulfill all your dreams here and hereafter. I will pray for you both to the last breath. I promise brother.
Sealed with all love and respect.
yours, rema
