I need you

I need you.

A lump in my throat with every sunrise my hotmail announcing there is no email from you. It has been days since last we communicate. It has been months since last I reminded you of my desire. It has been two years since I asked you "I want to get few lines from you telling me about our relation". Days, months and years passed and I did not get one. And I do not think I will ever get one.

I have started to work on a project of mine to collect all lines you wrote scatteredly in emails and sms and compose myself email you supposedly would write for me one day. It will never be the same, but it might help rise my spirit abit; which has been lately down.

It is hard.

Do you still remember me? do you still love me? Can you hear me ? I wish to know. I talk to you most of the time, but I don't feel I get a response from you. Does it mean you want me to go? I did my best to suppress the urge to call you crying; to tell you it is not fair and I need you in my life. I love you. I will always do.

I just need you

Can you hear me..

It has been long time..I do not even know why I am writing here. I wish he can hear me I wish he can talk back to me.

I go there again to where we first met, I do not know why. I just look at the list trying to conjure things up again. I feel I will be able to see him again, once more.

I want to talk to him again; to tell him how much I miss him; how much I need to talk to him. I know he cannot. He has been reluctant with me recently which aches my heart so much. I long to hear about what he thinks of things he knows quiet well I long to know about.

Today I knew he passed his driving exam, I wished I can listen to him telling me about this. I wish to tell him that he did not ask about my results. Not that I care about my academic result, I just care about his questions. I passed, anyway. Not outstanding, because I did not expect that since I did not read a line for the exam. Still, I do not care ..

I have been reading novels as always :) , having lessons to revise Quran. Umm nothing special really. It is boring honestly.

I wish you can read those lines ..I wish to hear from you too. I wish to know you're doing great and your study is a smooth sailing.

Best wishes.. sealed with absolute love and care