Your little girl..

Dad…

With every tick of the clock, my heart does so with love and longing for you...
I miss you dad, I miss your smile, your warm hug, your splendid "Good morning" every day, I miss the color in which you paint my day….I miss everything in you dad.

Years passed and every day I miss you more...I have never imagined I would open my eyes one day and you are not near...My soul has been stolen, my heart has been stabbed. My day has turned black and white since your departure...

Dad...

I'm still imagining how my life would be if you are still here...I built many webs and dreams where we are all together as before…The happy family.

Dad…

I miss you so much

Dad…

You promised me you will always be here even if you are not around…you told me you will be able to hear me even if we are miles away… and I believe you dad. I keep doing all what we used to do...I wake up daily to the memory of your " good morning pumpkin" which still echoes in my head and I'm sure you hear my greeting back ..Your photo is the first thing I open my eyes to daily dad...I still can't sleep without it under my pillow and in front of me hanging on the wall…Seeing your open arms provides me with enough strength to live another day without you ...to welcome life as you always welcome me.

Dad…

Today I embark in a significant step in my life where I really need you... I need your advice, encouragement and support...I need you to tell me "I can do it ". I miss the very idea of you being here to share me my dream, our dream… the dream we have always pictured in our minds together.

Dad…

I'm still the same little girl you left behind years ago, the same girl who awaits for you at the door steps refusing to eat or drink without you being here…I grow up but still I do the same dad...I have never changed...and here is my fear dad. Dad, my mum is my only refugee after you; the person I'm awaiting for now at the door steps even if I have never shown or told a single person before. Dad, mum is all what I have and the only person cares about me...she suffers and endures a lot because of me...Still I need her around dad. I can't imagine dad I would start studying and she is not around...I can't lie to myself dad, I can't do it. I'm lost dad without you both around me. I miss you both dad. I can't tell her anything dad...I don't want to ruin everything for her...and I don't want to ruin our dream by dropping everything and following her. I can't disappoint her, disappoint you both dad. A two-month vacation away from her proved to me that I'm weak without you both. I can't stand the world without one of you beside me. I'm still your "whiny girl" whatever I do to prove the opposite; I find myself wander around your memory of you both.

Dad…

I know you can hear me and feel everything I feel even without telling you…But I will say it aloud dad "I promise you to do my best to make you proud of me". My heart will always be your kingdom alone…Your presence there dad heals all my pains and sorrows.

Dad…

Thanks for being a great dad ...thanks for all the love and care you showered us both …Thanks for listening to me, for answering all my questions…

Dad…

I love you so much