I Still Ask

He is there for me when no one else will listen

He is there for me when no one else will care

And with His love my inner-self can glisten

And lose its darkened troubles and despair

I know that I can never ever pay u

For all the debts you lent me in my Days

yet humbty,for more ,I still must ask u

And praise you,though you do not need my praise

My worldly wants do not mean a thing to u

For your eternal giving knows no pair

And when I'm needing I turn only to u

For you are kind, and just, and Ever-fair

When I'm alone,He is always there beside me

we meet and talk five times in every day

And all alone (knowing his presence by me)

I turn my face towards his and then I say

I know that I can never ever pay u

For all the debts you lent me in my Days

yet humbty,for more ,I still must ask u

And praise you,though you do not need my praise

So I still ask,for no one else will listen

And I still ask for no one else will care

On that last Day,when Fires are a-glisten

And enter Gardens those for whom you care!

By..Monshed: Ahmad Bo Khater

http://www.islam4m.com/anasheed_show-462.html

A Steal

He steals me from my world to his ...
A different world...
A world where the dream is the sky...
Hope is the stars...and tenderness is the moon.

He lightens my life with candles...
Sprinkles my path with daises...
I fly to that dreamy sky...
I dance, sing and Die!!
Die…because it is a Different World...

In his world, he decided to leave...
Indeed,

He left...
He left where I can't find him...and he can't find me…

Oh God!!
I am stabbed…
Stabbed with his farewell.
How can I live after him?
Does my pain have a cure?

Once my love enhanced..
And my joy, too.
Now is the turn of my pain!!

He left after my tears embraced him…
He left me alone with a broken heart…
A heart wept and wept and wept.
How hard is this life!!
Puts him in my way...then steals him from me.

Smile..

Smile.

Smile brings Hope.

Hope is life.

No life without hope..and No hope without life.

It is My Choice...

I'll dream cause I'm human..I'll dream nothing will stop me..
No pain..
No tear..
Even those who don't care!!

I'll dream as the blood flows in my vessel..As my lungs breathe
And my heart beats beats and beats….

I'll dive in my imagination..I'll climb my mountains and destroy my fears and worries..
I'll throw myself into the clouds of illusion..to live and dance with my insanity!!

Here, on my wreck I'll draw the feelings of a soul..
The feelings of a soul once has lived…
Once has smiled and laughed.

On my grave, I'll plant daises and roses..to seek solace and patience..
I won't live my life…Sadness without hope..Heart without love..

I'll dream nothing will stop me..
No pain..
No tear..
Even those who don't care!!

I'll dream to live my lie..
I'll dream to know myself..
I'll dream cause I'm human…with soul and heart…

A memeory of Invasion

A memory of invasion always haunts me..
It was not an invasion of a country..
It was not an invasion of a territory..
It was an invasion of a heart..

My Heart..

My heart was invaded with armed soldiers..
With soldiers of love..
With soldiers of passion..

They announced my heart to be their right..
My heart tried to resist..
Tried not to accept..
Tried to confront..
At last, it waved the flag of submit,
Of surrender, of regret..

My heart chose to be the salve of this love..
To live under this love..
To live under this passion..

But, he suffered ..
He wept…
Not of submit..
But trying to not forget..
He was just a slave..
He was just a slave..
He suffered because he loved his invader
He wept because he adored his raider

He couldn't love and be silent..
He couldn't ..
He couldn't…

One day, he revealed his love..
He revealed his passion and obsession..
Me too..was the invader's replay!!
I love you too..
I adore you too..
But, it was too late..
It was too late to love..
It was too late to adore..

It was time to leave..
It was time to escape..

It was only time to die..
To die together as we suffered together..
My heart killed him
As his heart did to me..

It is not a memory of invasion..
It is a memory of love.

Complain all...Life is for whom!!!

Everyone I have ever met is complaining about his or her life. Each one has its own concerns..Its gloomy world!!

I see people and contemplate

Is there any one happy in this life?
Is there any one in this universe doesn't have a single problem?
When we face problems what we do and how we react?

My heart sank in thinking of this gloomy world. I tried to forget but I couldn’t I'm one of this miserable people!!

I decided to read Quran asking God to remove those dark clouds from my heart. When I was reading the holy verses, I discovered the answers for all these questions cloudening my heart and the hearts of most people…

It is all the time in front of us but we choose not to look enjoying this dismal life or simply ignoring this fact!!

The answers are in this holy verse: ((Know ye (all), that the life of this world is but play and amusement, pomp and mutual boasting and multiplying, (in rivalry) among yourselves, riches and children. Here is a similitude: How rain and the growth which it brings forth, delight (the hearts of) the tillers; soon it withers; thou wilt see it grow yellow; then it becomes dry and crumbles away. But in the Hereafter is a Penalty severe (for the devotees of wrong). And Forgiveness from Allah and (His) Good Pleasure (for the devotees of Allah.. And what is the life of this world, but goods and chattels of deception? ))

Indeed, it is a life where people are involved in bragging in wealth and sons!!
Our eyes are blind and our hearts are blocked!!

Oh God …How significant those words when they touch the illuminating minds!!
Oh God…How great those words when we contemplate them!!

Life is an ephermel joy..
Happiness in this life is a mere mirage…
The closer we are, the further it is..

No one is comfortable in this life!!
All chase its joys!!

But life is epheremal and its joys are transient and mere seduction.
So, how can we have happiness?
How can we have comfort?
How can we have peace?

God said ((Be ye foremost (in seeking) Forgiveness from your Lord, and a Garden (of Bliss), the width whereof is as the width of heaven and earth, prepared for those who believe in Allah and His apostles: that is the Grace of Allah, which He bestows on whom he pleases: and Allah is the Lord of Grace abounding.))

Here is the secret,,,
Here is the true happiness
In Heaven…in Paradise…between the hand of God..
Only here we can enjoy worriless and undisturbed life.

No use to be miserable…
No use to be sad..
No use to complain..

God has destined this to us 50.000 years before he has created the skies and earth..No one could change this..No tears, no complains, no frowns.

It is God's will…
It is God's destiny..
We have to submit, to be contented and to be patient..

PATIENTCE only could wipe our tears, could relieve our pains and closen us to the eternal happiness in Paradise…

Where Am I Standing?

"This time like all other times is a very good one if we but know what to do with it"

Many of us spend much of our lives wishing for better times. Some may wish they could open the pages of their lives to a happier PAST..a more happy moment much better than now. Others may wish just to move forward towards the same goal..a happier FUTURE other than NOW.
Both try to escape NOW. It is the present that most of us try to run away from..though it is the only moment we can have!!

However, those who are looking for their "Brilliant Past" are mere deceptive!! They deceive themselves with remembering only" The Good Days" and ignoring the fact that they at that time were looking at them as "Sad and miserable"!! Even if they were really "Good Old Days" , they still avoid remembering that they were unpleasant days, too. They only focus on the positive aspects of the PAST and ignore the negative ones. Surprisingly, they do exactly the opposite with the PRESENT. They concentrate too much on the negative aspects of the present ignoring completely the great moments of their lives they can enjoy now.

This is exactly the case to those who are looking towards FUTURE. The PAST and the PRESENT are gloomy while the FUTURE is the only prospective time ever ignoring the fact that PRESENT is a future ,too.

Anyway, to me neither case apply!!
I was remembering the PAST as a miserable period in my life and that the FUTURE was promising no more good either !!

The PAST, this MOMENT and the FUTURE were the same ..No motion, No thinking…....No happiness at all.

I couldn't find a goal for my life neither in the PAST nor in the FUTURE!!!
But in an impulsive moment, I decided to change this..to choose a new way..A unique method.
No use of looking at the PAST as gloomy, since I had had wonderful moments with those who love me and care about me. All people have experienced the feeling of loss..loss of a friend, a dear person, money or even as simple as a pet!

Still, life continues promising a marvelous FUTURE, a new Dawn.

No use of crying over the PAST because it will never change. It is not only me who had sad moments or lost dear persons..at least I still have someone care about me and love me even if they didn’t show that…Still, they care.

Thus, I decided to stop thinking of the PAST as gloomy..to stop thinking that I'm the only distressed person in the universe ..simply because I'm not.
Similarly, FUTURE is a chance to a better life. So why I sentenced it to death before it is born?
That is all deprived me from living my life..I couldn’t enjoy my Past , my Present or my Future …
But today I am a unique person, I am a different soul.

I will enjoy my PAST, because I had people who loved me.
I will enjoy my PRESENT, because I have people who love me.
I will enjoy my Future, because I will have people who love me.

(No more escape of the moment)
My life was, is and will be always happy, if God wills…….

Ramadan Kareem

Ramadan Kareem...

Ramadan is the Holy Month in which the Holy Quran has been inspired to our

prophet Mohammed Peace be upon him.

It is the month of peace, faith and mercy...

It is the month where We have to be forgiven, merciful, faithful to deserve God's Forgiveness.

Let's start today...

Forgive our friends' fault..

Be merciful to others...

Enhance our faith in our God...

Her new map..

(All happy families resemble one another, but each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.)


A line sums up the reality, the reality of our own lives. I have always been interested in what makes a family happy?...Rather what makes a person happy? Is it friends? is it money? or is it simply being contented with what you have even if it is too little?

But what if a person has friends, money and is contented with what she has but still she is unhappy?! She is unhappy in her own way!

What if this unhappy person is the same one who writes these words, the same one who tries to find the truth of " Happiness"?!

What shall she do? What shall she do?!

Shall she go to her usual dark corner? or Shall she swim in the depth of her own heart?
It has been 3 years till now and she still in that corner…Is it really the time to open that door??

But, it is a difficult question. It is hard to try discover the truth of happiness alone. Alone…yes, this is the key word.

ALONE ALONE!!

This is the answer " Alone"….It is her own way of unhappiness!!

She has friends around her but still she feels alone; she has money but still she feels alone, she is contended but still she feels so alone!!

Loneliness becomes a feature of her life. It is not a condition of being among people or not….it is a condition of feelings, is a condition of heart. She feels the same when she is surrounded and when she is in her own room….Alone.

Her loneliness is her own way. She is alone not because she doesn't have people around her, but because all these people don’t care!!! She needs to be loved, to be appreciated, to be IMPORTANT.

Her loneliness is her own way. Three years, she seems as if standing in amid of desert..listens only to the wind and feels the heat of the sun not on her body ..but in her heart…to cry and weep and nobody listen but winds, this is Loneliness.

To live as a hypnotized for three years is not easy..and the most difficult is to try to lie!!
Three years and she could not abandon her friend..this friend who imposes itself on her !! Wherever she goes it accompanies her stealing everything but her tears.
Yes, this friend deprives her from everything but tears..her cheeks become a witness of this friendship!!

Three years and she tries to deceive herself …to deceive her mind. She closes all her heart's doors..and convince her mind that she loves this friend and its company ..it could be her friend forever.

At last, she decides to open that door after three years..after three years in the prison of that friend. She opens it to discover the truth ..the truth that she has been hiding for three years, hiding from everyone even her own mind!!

She doesn’t want to be a friend of loneliness, she doesn't want to live alone anymore, to live that big lie!!

She wants to change the map of all her life…to be born again a new person…to simply be as all happy family.

She is certain that she will walk a baby step towards this new map..She may spend her lifelong to achieve this goal, but at least she might know a new friend…she might be able to change that dark corner to a more colorful one…

That door is opened now and no way of retreating.
No more lies, no more deception could be believable…she has chosen to open that door and she has to continue..

She will trade that path holding FOUR hopes for four PERSONS:

That he will be proud of her..
The other to forgive her
And she to be her friend again
and finally that Allah will reward him for everything he has done, to bless him all his life

Thanks God for everything…Thanks God for sending him to her..Thanks God.