Her new map..

(All happy families resemble one another, but each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.)


A line sums up the reality, the reality of our own lives. I have always been interested in what makes a family happy?...Rather what makes a person happy? Is it friends? is it money? or is it simply being contented with what you have even if it is too little?

But what if a person has friends, money and is contented with what she has but still she is unhappy?! She is unhappy in her own way!

What if this unhappy person is the same one who writes these words, the same one who tries to find the truth of " Happiness"?!

What shall she do? What shall she do?!

Shall she go to her usual dark corner? or Shall she swim in the depth of her own heart?
It has been 3 years till now and she still in that corner…Is it really the time to open that door??

But, it is a difficult question. It is hard to try discover the truth of happiness alone. Alone…yes, this is the key word.

ALONE ALONE!!

This is the answer " Alone"….It is her own way of unhappiness!!

She has friends around her but still she feels alone; she has money but still she feels alone, she is contended but still she feels so alone!!

Loneliness becomes a feature of her life. It is not a condition of being among people or not….it is a condition of feelings, is a condition of heart. She feels the same when she is surrounded and when she is in her own room….Alone.

Her loneliness is her own way. She is alone not because she doesn't have people around her, but because all these people don’t care!!! She needs to be loved, to be appreciated, to be IMPORTANT.

Her loneliness is her own way. Three years, she seems as if standing in amid of desert..listens only to the wind and feels the heat of the sun not on her body ..but in her heart…to cry and weep and nobody listen but winds, this is Loneliness.

To live as a hypnotized for three years is not easy..and the most difficult is to try to lie!!
Three years and she could not abandon her friend..this friend who imposes itself on her !! Wherever she goes it accompanies her stealing everything but her tears.
Yes, this friend deprives her from everything but tears..her cheeks become a witness of this friendship!!

Three years and she tries to deceive herself …to deceive her mind. She closes all her heart's doors..and convince her mind that she loves this friend and its company ..it could be her friend forever.

At last, she decides to open that door after three years..after three years in the prison of that friend. She opens it to discover the truth ..the truth that she has been hiding for three years, hiding from everyone even her own mind!!

She doesn’t want to be a friend of loneliness, she doesn't want to live alone anymore, to live that big lie!!

She wants to change the map of all her life…to be born again a new person…to simply be as all happy family.

She is certain that she will walk a baby step towards this new map..She may spend her lifelong to achieve this goal, but at least she might know a new friend…she might be able to change that dark corner to a more colorful one…

That door is opened now and no way of retreating.
No more lies, no more deception could be believable…she has chosen to open that door and she has to continue..

She will trade that path holding FOUR hopes for four PERSONS:

That he will be proud of her..
The other to forgive her
And she to be her friend again
and finally that Allah will reward him for everything he has done, to bless him all his life

Thanks God for everything…Thanks God for sending him to her..Thanks God.